I hate myself.
I hate myself for not being pretty, tall, smart.
Most importantly, I hate myself for the weak in me. I do not seem to have learnt a lesson. After the horrible first half of this year, I'm still like so floaty?! I want (& need) to do well in my studies, to get FCH. But I don't want to waste time. I cannot depend on my degree. I don't want to just sell milkshakes or Kpop calendars. What will my future be like? I need to make plans. But the drive isn't in me! I cannot feel it ): I'm doubting my ability to juggle the many commitments. HOW HOW HOW!
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Had a really awesome pact dinner at Paradise Dynasty with Grace, Merri, Yuqi, Tiffany and Clarice last Friday (:
Spent $27 heartache but oh wells.
Lucky I was mentally prepared already.
School's been fine I guess.
I think all my lecturers are good!
But the whole system's kinda too focused on academics and doesn't prepare us for the workforce at all ):
Sianz and there's A LOT of self-study to do.
